Sorry guys. Haven’t been on. Started playing Maplestory again.
Got from 80 to 120 in two days lol they make it too easy now.
I feel depressed but I can’t cry. I’m mad but i don’t know at who or what or why. This “feeling” is killing me from the inside, i just need to let it out. But i promised my mom i would never cut myself on purpose anymore, so the only thing i can think of is punching the wall. Or flip a table.
oh you know, just bored :P don’t mind the awful dancing lol
wft did i just watched? ._.
Final Destination pentalogy marathon.
I’m NEVER going outside again.
On omegle in disguise :P
So let me keep my eyes close.
FML. No one would believe that i have low self esteem. I put on tons of makeup, do my hair perfectly, and dress up nicely whenever i leave the house with a smile. But at the end at the day, im scared to take off that mask. I’m scared of going back to being that lonely, quiet, ugly girl that was always by herself.
June 15, 2012
Just when I realized that I fell for one of the most amazing guy I could ever meet. It’s already too late. I took him for granted and pushed him away. I closed off my heart and gave up on love because of the past that I let the future slipped out my hand right in front of me. Like you said, I still have a lot to learn. For now, I just need to get my life slowly back to the way it was before I met you and get some sleep so I wouldn’t have to think or feel or remember anything.
- and i feel scared, sad, depressed, mad or stressed out. I allow myself to feel like that for a moment, but ONLY in that moment do i let myself be weak and vulnerable.
After that, I stand up again, put on a smile, and continue to live. Because my life is too precious to live in fear, sadness, worries, or anger. I’m going to live each day of my life to its fullest and not anything or any ONE is going to stop me. #IDGAF
“Sometimes I need that romance,
sometimes I need that pole dance.
Sometimes I need that stripper
that’s goin’ tell me that she don’t dance.
Tell me lies, make it sound good.“